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April 2nd 2015
A year since Y/N’s death
It’s been a hard year. I almost quit the band at one point. The guys almost had to cancel a tour around America because of me.
I couldn’t help it.
Without her here anymore.
I’m not me
Every time I had to write a new song,it was always about her. She’s all I think about. Every day, night, hour, minute, second.
It’s even worse that whenever I look at my arm, I see her name, tattooed there.
The tattoo will stay there forever. Like my love for her. I probably won’t find anyone as good as her. She was perfect. Her bright eyes, her smile that could light up a room, her beautiful body, her intelligent mind and how she cared for others.
I always said in interviews when the interviewer brought her up, how much I loved her, how much she meant to me, how much she loved me, how much I meant to her.
I even said in one interview, that I would marry her if I could, but now I guess, it’s too late.
She would have worn a gorgeous white dress, looking like the definition of perfection, as she normally does. I would have seen her walking down the aisle, her and her father looking at me, smiling. A tear would fall from both of our eyes. We’d be so happy. Together for eternity. Nothing would have broken us apart.
But something did.
Her leaving me
Her leaving her family
Her leaving her friends
Her leaving the world
I could never love anyone as much as I loved her
She was the love of my life
She was my soul mate
She was my world.
She was my everything
and she always will be